Insight to a perplexed mind.

I feel like the only reason why I’m still up is so I can...

Fri, 08 Mar 2013 02:04:46 -0500

I feel like the only reason why I’m still up is so I can maybe talk to my best friend. I still need to fill this in. Oh, but how I love dramatic pauses.

It’s 12:10am on march 4th. I had an amazing weekend, that...

Mon, 04 Mar 2013 01:11:19 -0500

It’s 12:10am on march 4th. I had an amazing weekend, that I will share.. May get a little.. Interesting, but this is where I get to share, like my diary, I just miss my actual diary. Hope you had a good weekend.

I fed ducks, geese, and uh, seagulls?? Today. I have no idea...

Mon, 25 Feb 2013 01:08:03 -0500

I fed ducks, geese, and uh, seagulls?? Today. I have no idea where the seagulls came from but whatever.

I sent this text to a friend of mine today.. It’s a little weird, but I think it describes my creative side pretty decently.

“If there’s not an answer to your call, I’ve run off to prepare for July in that land of dreams where my gypsy girl has evolved into a great beautiful painting I finally mastered while sitting on a hay bale on the roof of a barn in a white dress, basking in the warm sunshine and cooling in the light breeze. The place of all laughter and wondrous things. Waiting for my partner to meet me. the feelings like touching a frog in a rainforest of hopping and laughing until you become a frog and see blue as red and red as blue. That’ll be where I am, if I miss your call from your “call you soon.” (:”

growing out my bangs. it snowed and sleeted and iced over the...

Thu, 21 Feb 2013 19:28:39 -0500

growing out my bangs.

it snowed and sleeted and iced over the city today.

i always wonder what my city’s landmark looks like covered in snow,

but I never dare to cross the river and see.

Hair monster.

Wed, 13 Feb 2013 02:23:23 -0500

Hair monster.

My best friend is moving today. He’s headed to Seattle and...

Sun, 10 Feb 2013 18:36:22 -0500

My best friend is moving today.

He’s headed to Seattle and never coming back.

This best friend is also an ex lover,

one who I used to sit and talk to late at night under the covers.

I’ve told him plenty of times my love for him will always stay.

I will miss him, but his presence will be something that will never lack.

People make me unhappy. Gypsy life is the life for me. Living by...

Thu, 07 Feb 2013 01:59:03 -0500

People make me unhappy. Gypsy life is the life for me. Living by the mountains in a tree.

Just woke up an hour ago. I have a shit load of things to do...

Sun, 03 Feb 2013 14:17:11 -0500

Just woke up an hour ago. I have a shit load of things to do today, but at least I’ve caught up on my sleep. 1.3.13

It’s almost two am. I feel like i never sleep. Today has...

Fri, 01 Feb 2013 02:56:50 -0500

It’s almost two am. I feel like i never sleep. Today has been super long. I worked this morning… I think I’m going to attempt sleep, wake up at buttcrack am. Okay. Good night.

My other, more random blog: sunf0x.tumblr.com

Thu, 31 Jan 2013 03:57:23 -0500

My other, more random blog: sunf0x.tumblr.com

“You’re brimming with confidence,” he said,...

Thu, 31 Jan 2013 03:46:14 -0500

“You’re brimming with confidence,” he said, while inspecting this photo. Those few words kind of made my night. I laid back down, took the last sip of my warm tea, took a deep breath, smiled, closed my eyes, and finally fell asleep.

Tuesday, January 29th. been crying over a dumb boy all...

Tue, 29 Jan 2013 23:34:41 -0500

Tuesday, January 29th.

been crying over a dumb boy all day.

spilled water on my skirt

forgot about a quiz

but it’s been a decent day regardless.

It’s Monday. January 28th 2013. So much has changed in so...

Mon, 28 Jan 2013 14:29:53 -0500

It’s Monday.

January 28th 2013.

So much has changed in so little of time.

It’s crazy how fast life goes.

And all I can think is that I need to study hah.

I hate time. Yet I love it. Souls become wiser.

1/24/2013 It’s been a long day and it’ll be a long...

Thu, 24 Jan 2013 22:58:21 -0500

1/24/2013

It’s been a long day and it’ll be a long night.

I woke up exactly where I wanted to be.

Rushed to get home to take my cat and two of my dogs to the vet.

Went back to my living area, did some homework, went to class, came back to my living area, (which by the way is a basement haha) now I’m wanting to play Pokemon before doing more homework.

So, not real busy, but pretty busy.

A lot’s been going on, but I don’t have a lot of time to write it all out, so this is it.

Went to see Underoath, As Cities Burn, mewithoutyou, and letlive...

Mon, 21 Jan 2013 05:15:44 -0500

Went to see Underoath, As Cities Burn, mewithoutyou, and letlive tonight, the 20th of January, 2013. It was just what I needed. Broke two hearts yesterday that I’m still not okay with, but.. Things always work out.

1.9.13. Haven’t updated this in forever. It’s...

Thu, 10 Jan 2013 03:36:36 -0500

1.9.13.

Haven’t updated this in forever. It’s 2:30 am on the tenth, but I took this on the ninth. I ramble a lot…. Have a lot to update about. I’ll write tomorrow, when I’m awake. (:

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Thu, 24 May 2012 10:41:46 -0400

I’ve come to realize how much of an asshole you really fucking are. I never meant shit to you...

Sun, 29 Apr 2012 07:55:03 -0400

I’ve come to realize how much of an asshole you really fucking are. I never meant shit to you nor do I think I’d ever want to.

it’s almost one a.m. here. i’m shaking from the temperature and how deceitful even the...

Fri, 13 Jan 2012 01:50:58 -0500

it’s almost one a.m. here. i’m shaking from the temperature and how deceitful even the most trustworthy of people can be. my stomach is in knots, i’m facing reality, or maybe it was just the past, but the past can turn and become the present. let it go, amber. take a deep breath, breathe in, breathe out. you’ll be fine. anxiety, hormones, my mind, my body, everything feels like it’s against me. i feel like i’m in a glass box that’s sized too small, like a performer in a circus. wanting to get out, wanting to breathe. i’ll be fine, i promise, i will.

long hair, the other day.

Wed, 11 Jan 2012 02:44:26 -0500

long hair, the other day.